May 2012
Me and my trust issues.
I need a vent session.
Like why can I not stay interested for more than a month. Like as soon as I know I got you I let you go.
Why can’t I just realize what I have in front of me is good.
That maybe this won’t end badly, that maybe it could be a good thing.
Or maybe my heart and my mind know that this isn’t it. That I should keep looking. That he is some one else and is still out there looking for me.
Is it juvenile to believe in happily ever after?
Does anyone still believe in soul mates anymore?
I wish it wasn’t all in riddles, I wish I could just find him and be interested for more than 15 minutes.
“And when at last you find someone to whom you feel you can pour out your soul, you stop in shock at the words you utter— they are so rusty, so ugly, so meaningless and feeble from being kept in the small cramped dark inside you so long.”
—Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath (via larmoyante)
